Confused apprehension ??  

Posted by Jainuine

Today I am slightly senti n pensive mood.

Sometimes I think that why do I or for that matter anyone puts in so much of hard work, fighting initially for existence and then for sustenance and finally for maintainence of things one can do without. when I was in 12th standard, i used to imagine myself with a small decent job that could bring home all the basic things of daily life, no great money- small and happy family life. I never wanted a very high profile life-style. Few months from now, I will be in a position where i will have a lot of responsibilities to share.

Will there be the comfort I always looked for? Doing whatever and whenever I wanted? Will that flexibilityand freedom in life still exist?

On the other end, I will learn more, experience different shades of life, meet and deal with different people and earn good money. With responsibility I can display my skills (whatever i have) and rise the ladder... maybe i am happy with it, I am not clear on it..
But certainly, materialism has taken precedence to goodness. Today I see oppurtunism prevailing around. Unknowingly, even I am affected by it.

I really miss my childhood days...
I really miss the long walk-talks with friends, laughing more on myself than on others, recollecting my childhood and sharing - stupidities i did with my friends, punishments i got from my parents, masti i did in school, pranks I played with the teachers, vowing ever-lasting friendship and sharing with friends about my crushes.

Koi laute de woh kagaz ki kashti, bachpan ki masti, woh baarish ka pani...